I have just reached the second highest level in my career as a Town Clerk, I now hold the International designation of Certified Municipal Clerk. After all of this hard work and effort to reach this goal; that I set close to six years ago, I find myself wanting to leave this career path.
I have hard choices to make; I have a stable job with great benefits and I still find myself craving something different. The Spirit inside of me screams for change. I find myself day dreaming about my passion, my logical brain and my creative spirit are at odds right now. I shall meditate on it for a couple of more days.
I set my intention to have my own Wellness Business now I hope I can stop fighting with the Universe about it. All things are lining up for my intention to become reality. However I can’t seem to let go of the past comforts.
Intentions have power like no other. Reiki, Meditation and Ambition, my mantra for the next couple of days.
Transitions seem to happen when I am not paying attention. I feel as though my life has transitioned, through the grief and is dwelling in the here and now.
As the Winter Solstice draws near I feel the strength of the Winter spirits calling to me.
It is the Elder Moon tonight:“Elder indicates the end in the beginning and the beginning in the end. Life in Death and Death in Life.”
The end in the beginning and the beginning in the end, this portion of the page resonates with me tonight.
Some days the thoughts are heavier than others. Today is one of those days, full.
Full seems like the best way to describe it, I feel full of something the descriptive word is not yet realized by me to describe it. I am mad and glad all at the same time sometimes glad at being mad.
I feel courageous and nervous and they are happening simultaneously. I feel one great awaking after another. I’ve been reading my own Tarot, probably should be a warning. Asking all the questions that months ago may have predicted my present situation. I have decided to read more about it.
I have a crystal that I have cleared with Reiki and charged with Reiki and the Full Moon Cycle. It really does add another dimension to my Reiki sessions. I am trying to remain focused and optimistic but my moods have been so dramatic as of late. I some times wonder if my clothing choices have something to do with it. I have so many solid colored shirts and black or gray slacks. Is it because of my Aura intuition?
I have been happiest when I wear a combination of colors, one particular sweater being among them. I wore it on my 40th birthday, then the move happened and now we are here. My mom was alive the last time I wore that sweater, it is so surreal to realize that. She hugged me that day.
Change has been all around me and when I tell myself to slow down some spiritual growth occurs during the slow down process. I never could have prepared for the grief.