Reiki

New Beginnings Or New Endings ?

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So many changes since you last post. I find myself on a journey that is bringing me to a new beginning. Or rather a new ending. 
I’m ending my old way of thinking and altering my perspective. Viewing things from a different angle.  
   

  

You get what you ask for.

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I have just reached the second highest level in my career as a Town Clerk, I now hold the International designation of Certified Municipal Clerk. After all of this hard work and effort to reach this goal; that I set close to six years ago, I find myself wanting to leave this career path.

I have hard choices to make; I have a stable job with great benefits and I still find myself craving something different. The Spirit inside of me screams for change. I find myself day dreaming about my passion, my logical brain and my creative spirit are at odds right now. I shall meditate on it for a couple of more days.

I set my intention to have my own Wellness Business now I hope I can stop fighting with the Universe about it. All things are lining up for my intention to become reality. However I can’t seem to let go of the past comforts.

Intentions have power like no other. Reiki, Meditation and Ambition, my mantra for the next couple of days.

Freedom…

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Reiki and I have been having a work out; it is flowing everyday all day as of late. I only have to think the word Reiki and I feel it, during the hardest times I find myself in a calm space.

I currently add Reiki to my bible reading efforts and the results are astounding. My journey for Wisdom is taking me to places I that are beyond my wildest imagination. I have so many wonderful and amazing things happening in my life right now. That even the worst things that are going on seem to be easily navigated. I’m certainly at peace, after much soul searching the freedom I feel is indescribable.

The struggles are not so hard to overcome I am forever thinking how amazing my life is and how much I enjoy this new chapter of my life.

When should I stop?

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When does a betrayed spouse stop asking questions they already know the answers to?

Even though I decided to move on with my life the desire for answers burns within.

I ask and more bombs go off around my marriage. By now the remnants if which could be Swiss cheese. I ask “How many other times have you cheated?” The answer astounds me.

Then the details of my ex-‘friend’ and him literally make me want to vomit. I remember moments that they went together to stuff at my urging. Like one time I couldn’t go to the beach because of work and I urged them to go together with the kids. And he is sitting there pretending their day out is a comfortable reality.

Then during her divorce he had the piss or get off the pot choice to make and couldn’t go through with it so he bailed but told her “He was working on it.”

Sick I say. I just can’t be here another minute but the kids and responsibilities that I won’t run from.

Finances play a piece in this. The affair I caught him at prompted me to get seperate bank accounts. But I just invested in my Reiki Business so my savings strapped.

So I am Sending Reiki to my current situation. If there are any Reiki practitioners that want to send some healing my way I would be grateful.

Many blessings will be bestowed upon me this will not detour me. I will get through it stronger and smarter.

Namaste
MJJ

Betrayal…

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I have been dwelling in a place of understanding or attempting to understand. On December 30, 2013 my friend called me drunk with a confessional.

Our co-friend Erica and old neighbor and my husband had an affair for over three years ending in April of 2013 or there about.

My brain had been trained for this type of thing after the Affair in July and so my first reaction was to investigate. But then I stopped and meditated paused and took a moment (A long moment) and decided that it didn’t matter what “I found out” it won’t change the facts of what happened.

I took a deep breathe and went and asked my husband about this new information that was presented to me. He of course denied and then denied and I walked away with no words spoken back to the sanctuary of my meditation. I sent Reiki to myself and to the moment and then prayed for the truth to be revealed and did more meditation and about one hour later he came to me and finally told the truth. The truth of how he had fallen in love with her and their shared moments and secrets. It happened. It started almost four years ago and ended in April 2013 after his sister passed away. His feelings started it and then Erica ended it. Most likely out of the guilt that ate her alive, now I can reflect back and see why she was so nervous around me. I thought it was her divorce that she was going through I’m certain the two are related.

Betrayed… does that really encapsulate how I felt I’m not sure.

My choice is to end my marriage of thirteen years. Ironically only a few short days after I had worked through the Affair with Ginger and wrote a huge blog post about Forgiveness.

I then spent last night alone and did my first Reiki Grid and set the healing in motion. I asked my Spirit Guides and Reiki Masters to help me with a boost of healing and what a night. I did the New Moon Reiki Share from http://completehealthcircle.com/ had and the healing was most amazing. I feel like a person who is strong enough to take on this new chapter.

My new Reiki Practice, my new mind set is healing and helping and loving. I sent love vibes out to all and asked that we find what we need to find out of the situation.

MJJ

Forgiveness..

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Forgiving my husband for the pain he caused me is something I have been struggling with.  I have been doing intense Reiki self-healing and getting ready for my new Reiki business, trying to figure out the balance of still doing my full-time job and start my own business. One thing is evident, I need to let go of some of the old stuff that I had been struggling with and one thing I chose is to let go of the affair that consumed me. 

During the month of August I was consumed with anger and sadness, I feel as though it set me back to the beginning of the self-healing that I was fighting through since the death of my mother in January. I have decided that I am going to cherish the lessons that I have learned from this happening to me and realize how much strength I have from this experience. I am going to embrace the fact that I am releasing myself and the act of healing is taking front page of my life. I am forgiving him from my heart and soul. 

I have essentially used Reiki to get through my husbands emotional affair and it is freeing me to love again. 

I am making the affirmation that I will embrace my joy and happiness I will release the destructive and unhealthy thoughts that come with the affair.

 

Happiness is within me and I am going to continually live with the fact that this happened but I chose to let it stay where it happened and to move on from it a stronger, healthier and happier person than I was.  

Before deciding to move in this direction the fear held me back and kept me in the moment of discovery it was an exhausting place to dwell, I constantly lived with the destructive thoughts that keep infusing me with anger towards my husband and his actions. Now I realize I was keeping myself from healing. I am thankful for this opportunity to move forward in my life and fill the space that was taken up by this event with new and loving events. 

Forgiveness doesn’t come easy it has taken me almost five months of highs and lows to arrive here. But I now know with certainty that I forgive him, and I am moving on. 

Wisdom…

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I was reading last night; about Wisdom, how wonderful she is. I believe I am on my journey for Wisdom, seeking her with my very being.

I have been presented with an opportunity to start my own Reiki Busines, by a close friend. I have decided to take the chance on me. I’m going to present a reduced work schedule for my current  job and then open my own business. It is in a small office with two other practitioners, they are Licensed Practical Councilors they have been in business since April. Two weeks ago I sent my friend a Facebook Message asking how her new business was doing. She told me that she had recently had an office become empty and she wanted to know if I was interested in filling it with my Reiki business. I told her I would need to think about it for a few days.

The ironic thing about the whole opportunity is the business is located at the end of the Road we just moved from. The travel time to go there is about an hour not including the ferry ride; and I now live and work five minutes from my house. All of that considered, I’m seriously still thinking about this opportunity presenting itself at this exact moment in my life. The ego is very excited about the request to join an established business, the realist is saying whoa, the spirit in me is saying take a leap, you may like where you land.