I have been dwelling in a place of understanding or attempting to understand. On December 30, 2013 my friend called me drunk with a confessional.
Our co-friend Erica and old neighbor and my husband had an affair for over three years ending in April of 2013 or there about.
My brain had been trained for this type of thing after the Affair in July and so my first reaction was to investigate. But then I stopped and meditated paused and took a moment (A long moment) and decided that it didn’t matter what “I found out” it won’t change the facts of what happened.
I took a deep breathe and went and asked my husband about this new information that was presented to me. He of course denied and then denied and I walked away with no words spoken back to the sanctuary of my meditation. I sent Reiki to myself and to the moment and then prayed for the truth to be revealed and did more meditation and about one hour later he came to me and finally told the truth. The truth of how he had fallen in love with her and their shared moments and secrets. It happened. It started almost four years ago and ended in April 2013 after his sister passed away. His feelings started it and then Erica ended it. Most likely out of the guilt that ate her alive, now I can reflect back and see why she was so nervous around me. I thought it was her divorce that she was going through I’m certain the two are related.
Betrayed… does that really encapsulate how I felt I’m not sure.
My choice is to end my marriage of thirteen years. Ironically only a few short days after I had worked through the Affair with Ginger and wrote a huge blog post about Forgiveness.
I then spent last night alone and did my first Reiki Grid and set the healing in motion. I asked my Spirit Guides and Reiki Masters to help me with a boost of healing and what a night. I did the New Moon Reiki Share from http://completehealthcircle.com/ had and the healing was most amazing. I feel like a person who is strong enough to take on this new chapter.
My new Reiki Practice, my new mind set is healing and helping and loving. I sent love vibes out to all and asked that we find what we need to find out of the situation.