I am but a vessel for Reiki to flow.

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As I meditated the day away, self-treatments galore, this came to me. I used Reiki to amplify my prayers to God. It was the most profound experience:

I fear God, God is Fear… this simple configuration of words has a power behind it.

I am seeking wisdom and when I decided to searched the bible for wisdom the passages were profound. I read the bible when we did a year with the bible at my church (Life Church Gorham ME) and the passages seemed to whisper to me but it was so faint I had so much going on in my head that I wasn’t in the present moment; so I missed a lot.

I decided to incorporate a bible verse in my Reiki self-practice and I had been seeking wisdom and knowledge all day. So I said the prayer “God please show me how to obtain knowledge and wisdom.” and I did Reiki over my bible.

I had a lot of apprehension because of the Christian, Reiki aspect. My viewpoint is that Reiki is Love and Love is not evil. I embrace both aspects of me.

There were so many passages about Wisdom in the bible it was just the simple affirmation/Prayer to show me how to obtain Wisdom. I used the Reiki II symbols over my bible and then did Reiki until it was done. This is what found me:

Job 28
New King James Version (NKJV)
Job’s Discourse on Wisdom

28 “Surely there is a mine for silver,
And a place where gold is refined.
2 Iron is taken from the earth,
And copper is smelted from ore.
3 Man puts an end to darkness,
And searches every recess
For ore in the darkness and the shadow of death.
4 He breaks open a shaft away from people;
In places forgotten by feet
They hang far away from men;
They swing to and fro.
5 As for the earth, from it comes bread,
But underneath it is turned up as by fire;
6 Its stones are the source of sapphires,
And it contains gold dust.
7 That path no bird knows,
Nor has the falcon’s eye seen it.
8 The proud lions[a] have not trodden it,
Nor has the fierce lion passed over it.
9 He puts his hand on the flint;
He overturns the mountains at the roots.
10 He cuts out channels in the rocks,
And his eye sees every precious thing.
11 He dams up the streams from trickling;
What is hidden he brings forth to light.
12 “But where can wisdom be found?
And where is the place of understanding?
13 Man does not know its value,
Nor is it found in the land of the living.
14 The deep says, ‘It is not in me’;
And the sea says, ‘It is not with me.’
15 It cannot be purchased for gold,
Nor can silver be weighed for its price.
16 It cannot be valued in the gold of Ophir,
In precious onyx or sapphire.
17 Neither gold nor crystal can equal it,
Nor can it be exchanged for jewelry of fine gold.
18 No mention shall be made of coral or quartz,
For the price of wisdom is above rubies.
19 The topaz of Ethiopia cannot equal it,
Nor can it be valued in pure gold.
20 “From where then does wisdom come?
And where is the place of understanding?
21 It is hidden from the eyes of all living,
And concealed from the birds of the air.
22 Destruction and Death say,
‘We have heard a report about it with our ears.’
23 God understands its way,
And He knows its place.
24 For He looks to the ends of the earth,
And sees under the whole heavens,
25 To establish a weight for the wind,
And apportion the waters by measure.
26 When He made a law for the rain,
And a path for the thunderbolt,
27 Then He saw wisdom[b] and declared it;
He prepared it, indeed, He searched it out.
28 And to man He said,
‘Behold, the fear of the Lord, that is wisdom,
And to depart from evil is understanding.’”

Job 28:8 Literally sons of pride, figurative of the great lions
Job 28:27 Literally it

I am still profoundly processing this that I needed to document this moment in time. Instead of keeping it as a draft I’m letting it go out there. I can’t get this experience into words so I am certain the passion will be shared with the reader of this post. I am Blessed.





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The burning desire to change is overwhelming. I don’t know what the change will entail but I know it is in the wind. Yesterday while I was walking in the woods the trees were heavy with snow and ice. With more snow falling in rapid succession, it caused me to pause and observe my surroundings gratitude filled me. The snow started with large, slow flakes sailing to the ground and then changed dramatically to fast falling smaller flakes. Very moving.

I decided to pause and enjoy the moment. I’m so grateful;  this Winter is different than any other, my story hasn’t spoken to me in weeks and Winter is usually the most active season for my writing. I think my characters are on a sabbatical or something. They are so quiet, I can’t help but wonder if it is the end in sight that has scared them off. Although my book is coming to a close I know I won’t say good bye to the characters it holds. I treasure them as if they were actual people in existence. After their slumber they will return of that I am sure.


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I was reading last night; about Wisdom, how wonderful she is. I believe I am on my journey for Wisdom, seeking her with my very being.

I have been presented with an opportunity to start my own Reiki Busines, by a close friend. I have decided to take the chance on me. I’m going to present a reduced work schedule for my current  job and then open my own business. It is in a small office with two other practitioners, they are Licensed Practical Councilors they have been in business since April. Two weeks ago I sent my friend a Facebook Message asking how her new business was doing. She told me that she had recently had an office become empty and she wanted to know if I was interested in filling it with my Reiki business. I told her I would need to think about it for a few days.

The ironic thing about the whole opportunity is the business is located at the end of the Road we just moved from. The travel time to go there is about an hour not including the ferry ride; and I now live and work five minutes from my house. All of that considered, I’m seriously still thinking about this opportunity presenting itself at this exact moment in my life. The ego is very excited about the request to join an established business, the realist is saying whoa, the spirit in me is saying take a leap, you may like where you land.

The Letter

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Here is the letter my 12 year old daughter wrote. Very blessed for sure.


Michelle 12-22-2013 694


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The lessons I have learned in the life time were not necessarily meant for the moment they were happening. Some of my experiences have happened so that later I would reflect on them and realize what the lesson was during that time period.

When I write in my journals I was very rarely reading them afterwards. Blogging may help me notice the patterns in my life. I was re-reading them by chance because of my book. I love the written hand that another reason it took me so long to get into blogging. I like to see my hand writing script and know that at one point in time I touched the paper that it was written on;  I like reading old diaries for that very reason.  I early on had my book thoughts trickle out onto the journal pages and wanted to see if there were any salvageable bits of excitement. That is when I started reading my own entries and they spoke to me so loudly. I have been pre-occupied with my own thought literally. When I can get through the past 20+ years of journals, the first years were a hard read, but honestly they are helping me realize how far I have come and how much I have evolved and changed.

The major thing I noticed in my life is that I live with my emotions out-loud. I may have found my second book and perhaps it is non-fiction. Excitement, nostalgia and overwhelming comfort are enveloping me this Sunday afternoon.

New Moon, New Beginnings….

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I’m starting new… Everything feels fresh and exciting. Opportunities keep presenting themselves to me and my intuition tells me to go for it. With such a firm voice I must listen, as is customary for me. 

My Nano Wrimo was the best ever this November I wrote close to 30, 000 words, now it is time to finish it up. I can’t wait to move forward with this book. My characters have been screaming at me for years it is only right to let them see the black and white of print. 

Currently an opportunity that both excites me and scares me is facing me. I have been meditating on it, writing about it, praying on it, anything that I can do and the pieces just keep falling in place for me to grasp it by it’s whisp and take the leap of faith that I am so keen on having. 

I always say Actions speak louder than words, now that it is my turn to take actions the words keep getting in the way.